Yay Thunderstorms!!!

Yay Thunderstorms

I have decided I love food. I love fast food like In n' Out. I love high fatty gourmet food, I even love steaks that have been cooked perfectly, which is something rather odd because I used to hate them. I hate frozen, fake and packaged food(with the exception of mac and cheese). I need to actually learn how to cook better, but so does everyone I guess. I have decided I will always be a fat kid, so I will just actually have to work out in order to compensate for the fact I love food. I am proud of being a fatty, to the extent of not being obese. This is a new goal, work out and eat like a pig. I no longer care about what size I am I will just eat pizza and then go for a run...I know I am stupid for saying all of this, but there has always been this stupid pressure to lose weight and be skinny. I now embracing my fat kidness and literally running with her, fuck skinny. Fat and happy is how I am going to be.

I managed last week to make it to the gym or work out three times which is like a record for me. I ran at least everyday I worked out, I also went to Bikram yoga.

After my first day of running I had an immense headache of dehydration and my body telling me I hate you. I know because of the pounding in my head and no matter how much water I would drink or what I would eat nothing cured it. Then the running and Pilates, where the instructor was a complete BITCH. I have never seen someone who hated what he does more than me. He was bragging about the "energy" in the gym but then not helping anyone. If I do go to another class it will be somewhere else.

Then I went to Bikram yoga. 130 degrees and 90 minutes of yoga. A strain on the mind and on the body. Everyone was telling me how you feel so much better afterwards, and you actually do. At least you are not in the blaring sun so it does not totally feel like you are doing yoga outside in Las Vegas in the Summer. I did feel energized and could not stop talking. Plus I had the whole mind forcing myself through it, which I miss. It was the whole detox behind it all too. James came with me, someone who had never done yoga before in his life managed to make it though. I was proud of him. It is not easy. He will get it I hope.

This week has been all spinning. I did yoga before on Monday. Wednesday I was up at the butt crack of dawn to go, then I was planning on going to yoga, but did not manage to get there. I just had no energy left because of work and being up at 4. I wish I had gone. There is the school year though. It is not an excuse, but still I either was hungry or I am just worn out. I have worked six straight days, and today will be seven. Who knows how this going to the gym three times a week thing will be panning out for me though....

So far I am liking it. Now if I could just make it outside to work out and run.

the big two five

I am really trying to figure out how to grow up and get into that routine. July 12th I turned twenty-five and now I am really just wondering now what. I see this movie coming out "Julie & Julia" and I cannot help but wonder how that pertains to my life. Girl at a dead end job, but ends up changing her life by cooking her way through Julia Child's cook book the French Chef. I am at a dead end job, but I really am trying to find my way into the grown up world. I want to work out and work everyday. On my days off I want to work out, knit, and cook. Along with read write and whatever. I cannot figure out what it is that I block out in my brain that prevents me from doing these.

I want a project where I keep my house clean. I do not understand why I love to do laundry but I HATE to put the clothing away. I start to organize my room, but end up never finishing it. I am in this constant state of middle brain. My left brain is always taking over the right brain, I have the power to start a right brain activity but never finish it. My right brain is the quitter, but never at work because I hate the messy work place or in school, I just cannot understand how I can keep the left brain going so well. It is really curious to me.

Julie blogs about her cooking adventures in Julia's cook book and the movie shows Julia's life at le Cordon Bleu cooking academy in France. Julia was never afraid to fail as anyone can see from any show you watch of hers, because they are down right hilarious, she makes mistakes constantly but is showing you how to fix it and just do it the best you can.

Now my question is what is going to be my project, I will write about and stick to (other than knitting because well I do that anyways). I need to grow up because my life is SOOOO boring. I need to start something, other than think about what a terrible mess the economy is in, or how broke I am. I need to focus on what this is to be twenty-five and grow up. I need to figure out how to marry the two parts of the brain and figure out how to be a left and right brained person. An ambidextrous brained person. Then I can write a book about it. Whether I do make something from a Cook book each and everyday of my life and go to the gym to work it off because I will gain about 100 lbs, or just the sheer fact of going to the gym everyday....maybe it will just be the fact of getting into a routine, and training myself into being an adult, because there is no one who can help you be one. It takes training because I see adults who are not even trained to be adults. I no longer want to be Katie who just does I want to be Katie who did all and can talk about it. Not just thought about it.

HOW to do it, is what I keep asking myself.

So again it has been awhile...

I haven't knitted anything. I don't know why. I am trying to finish things, but I am back in school and working on that now. School is the more important thing so yarn and love of knitting can wait. I find myself daydreaming about it and wishing for it. I just am losing all the time I have between homework, school, and actual work. Hobbies can wait, hobbies fall by the wayside. I just look at all the stash and all the yarn and a huge sigh escapes me.

Oh well I say, and go back to reading for school. I will become a teacher. I will teach English. I will be the best I can this and every semester after, from here on out. I HAVE TO! I do not have a choice. There are no other options. Again sigh and another oh well. Who knows maybe I will change the world. Obama apparently will according to everyone. I have faith he can work it all out, I am just not putting all the pressure on him people like my grandfather are who think it will happen in six months.

Plus I just keep reminding myself I cannot work serving coffee anymore. I just cannot do it. I hate this and I hate doing it. I want to help people not fake smile at them. I miss my old store. I miss the customers so much. I just want to go back one day and have a reunion. Say hi to everyone and know they are doing well. Give them all a hug and just say Hi.

Before school started I got to go skiing with the silly boyfriend. It was a blast let me tell you! He went snowmobiling for the first time ever, and threw me off. HAHAHA what a hilarious thing though. He is a boy what do you expect. We went to Utah and hit up the Deer Valley, then he at the Stine Erickson lodge at the buffet for lunch, and quite the buffet I will say that. It was worth the eight hour drive there and the eight hours back. I do not think I have seen him as happy as he was, I think it was the altitude. :)

Being little

When I was little I would look up at moon and actually think I was talking to him. I do not know why, I always thought there was a face in there, and he was a man I could talk to. Like it was God or just some man who was stuck out there. I know it sounds weird, but it was something comforting to me when my parents would be fighting or I just wished I was somewhere else. My imagination would take me to so many places with the man in the moon, or we would just talk.

Last night was the fullest and the biggest moon the earth would have seen all year. Yay D: I sat out there in the bone chilling wind looking at this beautiful moon and nothing. No little kid moment, other than I remember talking to "the man." Just wow that is pretty, SHRUG, oh well it is just the moon. The moon is like my favorite thing. The KtB apathy has returned to me like the black cloud it was for so long. I think my real smile is going away again, and it is back to just back in my shell of Bitch.

I know I lost all of my imagination when I grew up and actually learned about the moon. It doesn't bother me. It is what we do it is what part of becoming a grown up, sadly, and why grown-ups are such miserable people. Everything around us is we take too seriously. We want what we want and want it now. Really we are all little Vurika Salts From Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.
I want my coffee and I want it done right, I paid a lot for the coffee. I want my money...I will share with whom I see fit, I worked for it and only if I think you should be invited into my family then you can come into my family. As adults we have forgotten how to share, like we were told to by our mothers when were children.

I think what is getting to me now is he should have been here. Whenever there is an event like this he should have been here. He never is. I never once have ever gotten him for any of these things. The first snow, he went to a friends house instead of postponing it. This, he broke up with me leaving me to enjoy (I will say beautiful) an amazing moon plus some snow all to myself, again. Any romantic chance he gets has been blown to bits because there is something coming up. Granted he did break up with you so no you never get him again...

Oh wait, who could forget: HE IS NOT ACTUALLY IN LOVE WITH YOU AND TRULY BELIEVEs HE WILL NEVER BE!!!!! Which is a horridly shitty one.

I have this epiphany though it is a rather good one. Oh well anther day...I get to go to work again today and serve people coffee the right way. It is only for now, I will have something better soon...I will be a teacher DAMN IT

A message to California voters

Today​ you'​​ll be votin​g on wheth​er or not to amend​ the state​ const​ituti​on to elimi​nate the right​s of same-​​sex coupl​es to marry​.​​

In 1948 the Calif​ornia​ Supre​me Court​ found​ that marri​age "is a funda​menta​l right​ of free men." The Equal​ Prote​ction​ claus​e of the Calif​ornia​ Const​ituti​on state​s [​​among​ other​ thing​s]​​ that:​​

A citiz​en or class​ of citiz​ens may not be grant​ed privi​leges​ or immun​ities​ not grant​ed on the same terms​ to all citiz​ens.​​

This led the Calif​ornia​ Supre​me Court​ to rule on May 15, 2008 that the statu​te enact​ed by Propo​sitio​n 22 and other​ statu​tes that limit​ marri​age to a relat​ionsh​ip betwe​en a man and a woman​ viola​ted the equal​ prote​ction​ claus​e of the Calif​ornia​ Const​ituti​on.​​ It also held that indiv​idual​s of the same sex have the right​ to marry​ under​ the Calif​ornia​ Const​ituti​on.​​

Propo​sitio​n 8 would​ chang​e the const​ituti​on to elimi​nate marri​age right​s for same-​​sex coupl​es.​​ It would​ actua​lly amend​ the equal​ prote​ction​ claus​e to speci​fical​ly exclu​de same-​​sex coupl​es from marry​ing.​​ This is a blata​ntly discr​imina​tory measu​re that does nothi​ng but exclu​de.​​

Propo​nents​ will try to scare​ you by threa​tenin​g that schoo​ls will have to "​​teach​ gay marri​age"​​ unles​s you act quick​ly and vote for prop 8. I don'​​t even know what they mean by "​​teach​ gay marri​age"​​ but I do know that Calif​ornia​ schoo​ls aren'​​t requi​red to teach​ anyth​ing about​ marri​age ( - Jack O'​​Conne​ll,​​ Calif​ornia​ super​inten​dent of schoo​ls;​​ Calif​ornia​ Teach​ers Assoc​iatio​n)​​.​​ And this is a compl​etely​ irrel​evant​ argum​ent becau​se Calif​ornia​ gives​ paren​ts an absol​ute right​ to remov​e their​ kids and opt-​​out of teach​ing on healt​h and famil​y instr​uctio​n they don’t​ agree​ with.​​ The propo​sitio​n doesn​'​​t even say anyth​ing about​ teach​ing marri​age in schoo​ls,​​ all it seeks​ to do is elimi​nate marri​age right​s.​​ The schoo​ls argum​ent is a smoke​scree​n to scare​ peopl​e into chang​ing the const​ituti​on to elimi​nate right​s.​​

Same-​​sex marri​age is a reali​ty in Calif​ornia​,​​ other​ state​s,​​ and count​ries aroun​d the world​.​​ The sky is not falli​ng,​​ and weste​rn socie​ty as we know it has not colla​psed.​​

In the end, this issue​ is about​ civil​ right​s.​​ It's about​ liber​ty for peopl​e to live with the perso​n that they love,​​ under​ the marri​age contr​act as provi​ded by state​ law, irres​pecti​ve or relig​ion,​​ race,​​ or gende​r,​​ etc.

This is an issue​ I feel stron​gly about​.​ This issue​ I care highl​y about​ due to those​ peopl​e in my life who I love dearl​y and shoul​d be treat​ed as equal​s havin​g the same right​s as I do. Votin​g yes on propo​sitio​n 8 is votin​g to take their​ right​ to marry​ away,​ votin​g to take their​ right​ to love away.​​ It's telli​ng other​s that their​ lives​ are inval​id,​​ when who they feel to love is wrong​,​ and the right​s provi​ded by the const​ituti​on are free to be elimi​nated​ whene​ver and at whim.​​ It's sayin​g that gays do not deser​ve the digni​ty or right​s every​one else take​ very much for grant​ed.​ ​

Vote no on propo​sitio​n 8. There​'​​s no excus​e.​​

Note:​ I took this from my roomm​ate Natha​n Piazz​a I chang​ed a few thing​s,​ but Ideal​ly I did it to get a messa​ge acros​s.​ I reall​y just wante​d to give him the credi​t for putti​ng all the work into this.​

Apple Hill = Fun times

It has been a while, and I really haven't had anything really to write about.  So here goes.  We all had a day off so we decided to actually get out of Reno and have some fun. 

Last week I had a Sunday off so James took me to South Lake Tahoe for a nice little walk around.   I had never been before and James wanted to show me, which was super nice.  I got to see Heavenly, which is super pretty.  I thought Heavenly was beautiful in the winter time, it is just as pretty in the summer.  The funny thing is, is Heavenly on the Nevada side is like Las Vegas in the 1980's.  Caesars is now the Monte Blu.  Hahaha!!!!  I felt like I was flash backing. Also you can walk on two states at once!

SO today we, as in Katie, Casey, James and myself all went to Apple Hill.  Apple Hill is the cutsey lil place where there are tons and TONS of apple orchards.  I have never seen so many in my life. 

Here James is on the way driving us all there.  Thanks Handsome :)

                                                                

                                 

                 

Here are Katie and Casey are just being so damn cute just talking with us .  

Then the boys decided they wanted to figure out how and where we would be going so here they are looking at the map...ahh boys being boys...hahaha silly boys 

This was at the Jack Russel Brewery.  They had some awesome beer there really good and thes scenery was really pretty. 

 It was so nice out today.  It was not hot at all! 
Then we had some pretty sweet pies.  I had dutch apple and James had a carmel apple crunch.  Oh yes James added and wanted to make sure I don't forget ala mode and heated up.  The carmel apple was like a diabetic/heart attack killer but really quite good.  The dutch crunch had the best crunchy brown sugar topping on it...sooooooo goooooodddd!!!! Loved it.  The Ice Cream was great with it. I died.  I could not believe how great it was.  I haven't had pie that great in sooo long.  

 

All in all it was a great day now James and I are just chilling and laying down watching Season 3 of the Office enjoying the rest of our night ready to start our weeks 

In All the hype

This is all that I can do.  It is so hard to just not laugh.  You stupid fat cow.  I really nothing you, but yet you like to creep in there and try.  You're just so jealous of my adorable boyfriend and my cute face.  You're so sad I have caught on to you're annoyances and you're stupidity.  I will make it somewhere in this world and you will never.  I know this because the way you try is too hard and I do not have to.  I half ass everything and just do it in a manner.  People love me because of my cuteness.  People come back because of me.  You try to make me jealous of so much you try to make me upset at the semi-accomplishments you get.  Mostly you just frustrate me.  Mostly you just act immature.  Mostly you are just a lost soul who thinks you're better.  You will never be.  You have nothing behind your heart because it is black and you have to favor people to make others jealous.  It is the only way you can make friends to so you can have them be your spies.  It is pathetic.  It is sad.  I am on to you I got you're number.  I will not play your game though.  I will win this one by just sitting back and nothing you.  I will win in the day when we meet again and I am successful and you are still poor.  I will have my good job and making my money and written my many books and have that phd, while you, you will still be working there.  With a winner of a fiancee of your's...still your fiancee 

I do these things because I vent, you like to tattle on me which is stupid, really quite stupid.  Oh well.  I have to get rid of it all and then I never think of it again.  I wrote this as a draft like 2 weeks ago and really I have felt so much better.