Stupid Seizures

This is really starting to drive me crazy.  Having seizures and not knowing where they are coming from is not fair, I cannot handle it.  No one knows how I got them no one knows where they are coming from in my brain.  They doctors are not able to actually figure it out.  This is really just not something I want to deal with anymore and it is making me so unhappy I cannot focus.  I am having one every two weeks now.  

What the hell? I understand we all have burdens we have to carry, but I try so hard to be a good person.  This burden is making things so hard on me, I do not know how to actually be happy when it comes to just being.  There is always this at the back of my mind as to when i will have a seizure, and then which it is so much fun to have, and then it so much painful afterwards.  I just wish they would stop as quickly as they started.  

I think things like that would be fair.  Right!?

I think

He can be one of the most beautiful people I have ever met.  Really, he just makes me smile.  I have never thought of anyone this way before, but he is so kind and caring.  I like how we fit in bed together, and how well we sleep.  I just like kissing him. How is that?  He is really is a teddy bear.  He took me to Shakespeare it was amazing! I had so much fun we saw Richard III, and during it there was a shooting star.  So romantic, so well done on his part.  I told him he better be careful a girl could fall for him and or get used to this. :)  Quite easily! 

Anyways that is a whole different topic, I am just going with the flow. 

 My Starbucks is closing.  The only one in Reno, and the customers are pissed.  There are fights going on and there are people who want us to stay.  Starbucks is telling them too bad so sad.  It is in the red trying to keep it open.  WE are the only one in Reno, Nevada that is closing.  Silly I know.  Very very silly.  Really big corporation just one in the whole city of Reno?  If they gave it a year or even six months it would be a place of hopping, but they already wrote it off so there is no more nor is there a chance.  Starbucks is really failing to see how bad they are making themselves look to Reno also how they were apart of a reno beautification project?  Oh well what can we do.

I am such a loser knitter.  Really.  I just start and then stop and then don't finish.  I have so many that I have to actually finish and really really really want to...I have so much yarn I want to actually want to knit with also.  Oh well I will get it done.  I get to go to park city for a whole week...yay...I am so not thrilled...oh well at least I don't have to pay for it :)  

Goodness me

So it has been awhile...

It is because I haven't had internet in awhile.  I have also been away...Silly me!

I still am knitting the same stuff, but it is coming along and I just keep adding more and more projects to it, which is becoming more and more tedious.  More socks, more scarfs, and another shall. (YIPES!)  I will finish it all! Damn it I will finish it all!

My life keeps changing each day for better or for worse.  So I guess that means it is mediocre?  I cannot complain about it then.  Which kind of makes me sad.  Aside from the same ol' things to complain about, like my mother, things are well going good and going bad.  

The vacation was good I had fun with my lil sis.  As always.  She and I always get along, we have fun and when we fight it is sister fighting.  We played wii and spoke about books.  She kept saying how she was going to knit, but we all know how it is a pile of word bulimia coming from her mouth because she is thirteen.  When a thirteen year old starts, it never finishes.  Unlike a soon to be twenty-four year old who starts like thirty projects and will finish maybe one every few months.  The other sister not so much though.  Of course this was to be expected.  It is the disagreeing with everything coming out of my mouth, and the comparing of our bodies.  I am afraid the youngest will turn into the superficial brat this one is.  I wish her all the best in London.  I hope she does find her Mr. Darcy she thinks she is going to find.   OYE!!!  I think for all of life telling us we are going to find a prince charming we are going to think it is finally true.  

So it was a vacation, nothing much was done.  It was a family visit more like it.  go figure.  Nothing to it.  Nothing exciting.  They are family.  They drive a person up a wall like a cat and then the cat hisses back at them.  

Also if the few who read this blog at all can or get a chance, go and read:  www.postsecret.com... you will feel the most liberated ever!  It is a great feeling and a fantastic project.  Maybe soon I will be putting up pictures!

Oh yeah I will be 24 in 2 days...oh well...sad