Being little

When I was little I would look up at moon and actually think I was talking to him. I do not know why, I always thought there was a face in there, and he was a man I could talk to. Like it was God or just some man who was stuck out there. I know it sounds weird, but it was something comforting to me when my parents would be fighting or I just wished I was somewhere else. My imagination would take me to so many places with the man in the moon, or we would just talk.

Last night was the fullest and the biggest moon the earth would have seen all year. Yay D: I sat out there in the bone chilling wind looking at this beautiful moon and nothing. No little kid moment, other than I remember talking to "the man." Just wow that is pretty, SHRUG, oh well it is just the moon. The moon is like my favorite thing. The KtB apathy has returned to me like the black cloud it was for so long. I think my real smile is going away again, and it is back to just back in my shell of Bitch.

I know I lost all of my imagination when I grew up and actually learned about the moon. It doesn't bother me. It is what we do it is what part of becoming a grown up, sadly, and why grown-ups are such miserable people. Everything around us is we take too seriously. We want what we want and want it now. Really we are all little Vurika Salts From Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.
I want my coffee and I want it done right, I paid a lot for the coffee. I want my money...I will share with whom I see fit, I worked for it and only if I think you should be invited into my family then you can come into my family. As adults we have forgotten how to share, like we were told to by our mothers when were children.

I think what is getting to me now is he should have been here. Whenever there is an event like this he should have been here. He never is. I never once have ever gotten him for any of these things. The first snow, he went to a friends house instead of postponing it. This, he broke up with me leaving me to enjoy (I will say beautiful) an amazing moon plus some snow all to myself, again. Any romantic chance he gets has been blown to bits because there is something coming up. Granted he did break up with you so no you never get him again...

Oh wait, who could forget: HE IS NOT ACTUALLY IN LOVE WITH YOU AND TRULY BELIEVEs HE WILL NEVER BE!!!!! Which is a horridly shitty one.

I have this epiphany though it is a rather good one. Oh well anther day...I get to go to work again today and serve people coffee the right way. It is only for now, I will have something better soon...I will be a teacher DAMN IT

A message to California voters

Today​ you'​​ll be votin​g on wheth​er or not to amend​ the state​ const​ituti​on to elimi​nate the right​s of same-​​sex coupl​es to marry​.​​

In 1948 the Calif​ornia​ Supre​me Court​ found​ that marri​age "is a funda​menta​l right​ of free men." The Equal​ Prote​ction​ claus​e of the Calif​ornia​ Const​ituti​on state​s [​​among​ other​ thing​s]​​ that:​​

A citiz​en or class​ of citiz​ens may not be grant​ed privi​leges​ or immun​ities​ not grant​ed on the same terms​ to all citiz​ens.​​

This led the Calif​ornia​ Supre​me Court​ to rule on May 15, 2008 that the statu​te enact​ed by Propo​sitio​n 22 and other​ statu​tes that limit​ marri​age to a relat​ionsh​ip betwe​en a man and a woman​ viola​ted the equal​ prote​ction​ claus​e of the Calif​ornia​ Const​ituti​on.​​ It also held that indiv​idual​s of the same sex have the right​ to marry​ under​ the Calif​ornia​ Const​ituti​on.​​

Propo​sitio​n 8 would​ chang​e the const​ituti​on to elimi​nate marri​age right​s for same-​​sex coupl​es.​​ It would​ actua​lly amend​ the equal​ prote​ction​ claus​e to speci​fical​ly exclu​de same-​​sex coupl​es from marry​ing.​​ This is a blata​ntly discr​imina​tory measu​re that does nothi​ng but exclu​de.​​

Propo​nents​ will try to scare​ you by threa​tenin​g that schoo​ls will have to "​​teach​ gay marri​age"​​ unles​s you act quick​ly and vote for prop 8. I don'​​t even know what they mean by "​​teach​ gay marri​age"​​ but I do know that Calif​ornia​ schoo​ls aren'​​t requi​red to teach​ anyth​ing about​ marri​age ( - Jack O'​​Conne​ll,​​ Calif​ornia​ super​inten​dent of schoo​ls;​​ Calif​ornia​ Teach​ers Assoc​iatio​n)​​.​​ And this is a compl​etely​ irrel​evant​ argum​ent becau​se Calif​ornia​ gives​ paren​ts an absol​ute right​ to remov​e their​ kids and opt-​​out of teach​ing on healt​h and famil​y instr​uctio​n they don’t​ agree​ with.​​ The propo​sitio​n doesn​'​​t even say anyth​ing about​ teach​ing marri​age in schoo​ls,​​ all it seeks​ to do is elimi​nate marri​age right​s.​​ The schoo​ls argum​ent is a smoke​scree​n to scare​ peopl​e into chang​ing the const​ituti​on to elimi​nate right​s.​​

Same-​​sex marri​age is a reali​ty in Calif​ornia​,​​ other​ state​s,​​ and count​ries aroun​d the world​.​​ The sky is not falli​ng,​​ and weste​rn socie​ty as we know it has not colla​psed.​​

In the end, this issue​ is about​ civil​ right​s.​​ It's about​ liber​ty for peopl​e to live with the perso​n that they love,​​ under​ the marri​age contr​act as provi​ded by state​ law, irres​pecti​ve or relig​ion,​​ race,​​ or gende​r,​​ etc.

This is an issue​ I feel stron​gly about​.​ This issue​ I care highl​y about​ due to those​ peopl​e in my life who I love dearl​y and shoul​d be treat​ed as equal​s havin​g the same right​s as I do. Votin​g yes on propo​sitio​n 8 is votin​g to take their​ right​ to marry​ away,​ votin​g to take their​ right​ to love away.​​ It's telli​ng other​s that their​ lives​ are inval​id,​​ when who they feel to love is wrong​,​ and the right​s provi​ded by the const​ituti​on are free to be elimi​nated​ whene​ver and at whim.​​ It's sayin​g that gays do not deser​ve the digni​ty or right​s every​one else take​ very much for grant​ed.​ ​

Vote no on propo​sitio​n 8. There​'​​s no excus​e.​​

Note:​ I took this from my roomm​ate Natha​n Piazz​a I chang​ed a few thing​s,​ but Ideal​ly I did it to get a messa​ge acros​s.​ I reall​y just wante​d to give him the credi​t for putti​ng all the work into this.​

Apple Hill = Fun times

It has been a while, and I really haven't had anything really to write about.  So here goes.  We all had a day off so we decided to actually get out of Reno and have some fun. 

Last week I had a Sunday off so James took me to South Lake Tahoe for a nice little walk around.   I had never been before and James wanted to show me, which was super nice.  I got to see Heavenly, which is super pretty.  I thought Heavenly was beautiful in the winter time, it is just as pretty in the summer.  The funny thing is, is Heavenly on the Nevada side is like Las Vegas in the 1980's.  Caesars is now the Monte Blu.  Hahaha!!!!  I felt like I was flash backing. Also you can walk on two states at once!

SO today we, as in Katie, Casey, James and myself all went to Apple Hill.  Apple Hill is the cutsey lil place where there are tons and TONS of apple orchards.  I have never seen so many in my life. 

Here James is on the way driving us all there.  Thanks Handsome :)

                                                                

                                 

                 

Here are Katie and Casey are just being so damn cute just talking with us .  

Then the boys decided they wanted to figure out how and where we would be going so here they are looking at the map...ahh boys being boys...hahaha silly boys 

This was at the Jack Russel Brewery.  They had some awesome beer there really good and thes scenery was really pretty. 

 It was so nice out today.  It was not hot at all! 
Then we had some pretty sweet pies.  I had dutch apple and James had a carmel apple crunch.  Oh yes James added and wanted to make sure I don't forget ala mode and heated up.  The carmel apple was like a diabetic/heart attack killer but really quite good.  The dutch crunch had the best crunchy brown sugar topping on it...sooooooo goooooodddd!!!! Loved it.  The Ice Cream was great with it. I died.  I could not believe how great it was.  I haven't had pie that great in sooo long.  

 

All in all it was a great day now James and I are just chilling and laying down watching Season 3 of the Office enjoying the rest of our night ready to start our weeks 

In All the hype

This is all that I can do.  It is so hard to just not laugh.  You stupid fat cow.  I really nothing you, but yet you like to creep in there and try.  You're just so jealous of my adorable boyfriend and my cute face.  You're so sad I have caught on to you're annoyances and you're stupidity.  I will make it somewhere in this world and you will never.  I know this because the way you try is too hard and I do not have to.  I half ass everything and just do it in a manner.  People love me because of my cuteness.  People come back because of me.  You try to make me jealous of so much you try to make me upset at the semi-accomplishments you get.  Mostly you just frustrate me.  Mostly you just act immature.  Mostly you are just a lost soul who thinks you're better.  You will never be.  You have nothing behind your heart because it is black and you have to favor people to make others jealous.  It is the only way you can make friends to so you can have them be your spies.  It is pathetic.  It is sad.  I am on to you I got you're number.  I will not play your game though.  I will win this one by just sitting back and nothing you.  I will win in the day when we meet again and I am successful and you are still poor.  I will have my good job and making my money and written my many books and have that phd, while you, you will still be working there.  With a winner of a fiancee of your's...still your fiancee 

I do these things because I vent, you like to tattle on me which is stupid, really quite stupid.  Oh well.  I have to get rid of it all and then I never think of it again.  I wrote this as a draft like 2 weeks ago and really I have felt so much better.  

Stupid Seizures

This is really starting to drive me crazy.  Having seizures and not knowing where they are coming from is not fair, I cannot handle it.  No one knows how I got them no one knows where they are coming from in my brain.  They doctors are not able to actually figure it out.  This is really just not something I want to deal with anymore and it is making me so unhappy I cannot focus.  I am having one every two weeks now.  

What the hell? I understand we all have burdens we have to carry, but I try so hard to be a good person.  This burden is making things so hard on me, I do not know how to actually be happy when it comes to just being.  There is always this at the back of my mind as to when i will have a seizure, and then which it is so much fun to have, and then it so much painful afterwards.  I just wish they would stop as quickly as they started.  

I think things like that would be fair.  Right!?

I think

He can be one of the most beautiful people I have ever met.  Really, he just makes me smile.  I have never thought of anyone this way before, but he is so kind and caring.  I like how we fit in bed together, and how well we sleep.  I just like kissing him. How is that?  He is really is a teddy bear.  He took me to Shakespeare it was amazing! I had so much fun we saw Richard III, and during it there was a shooting star.  So romantic, so well done on his part.  I told him he better be careful a girl could fall for him and or get used to this. :)  Quite easily! 

Anyways that is a whole different topic, I am just going with the flow. 

 My Starbucks is closing.  The only one in Reno, and the customers are pissed.  There are fights going on and there are people who want us to stay.  Starbucks is telling them too bad so sad.  It is in the red trying to keep it open.  WE are the only one in Reno, Nevada that is closing.  Silly I know.  Very very silly.  Really big corporation just one in the whole city of Reno?  If they gave it a year or even six months it would be a place of hopping, but they already wrote it off so there is no more nor is there a chance.  Starbucks is really failing to see how bad they are making themselves look to Reno also how they were apart of a reno beautification project?  Oh well what can we do.

I am such a loser knitter.  Really.  I just start and then stop and then don't finish.  I have so many that I have to actually finish and really really really want to...I have so much yarn I want to actually want to knit with also.  Oh well I will get it done.  I get to go to park city for a whole week...yay...I am so not thrilled...oh well at least I don't have to pay for it :)  

Goodness me

So it has been awhile...

It is because I haven't had internet in awhile.  I have also been away...Silly me!

I still am knitting the same stuff, but it is coming along and I just keep adding more and more projects to it, which is becoming more and more tedious.  More socks, more scarfs, and another shall. (YIPES!)  I will finish it all! Damn it I will finish it all!

My life keeps changing each day for better or for worse.  So I guess that means it is mediocre?  I cannot complain about it then.  Which kind of makes me sad.  Aside from the same ol' things to complain about, like my mother, things are well going good and going bad.  

The vacation was good I had fun with my lil sis.  As always.  She and I always get along, we have fun and when we fight it is sister fighting.  We played wii and spoke about books.  She kept saying how she was going to knit, but we all know how it is a pile of word bulimia coming from her mouth because she is thirteen.  When a thirteen year old starts, it never finishes.  Unlike a soon to be twenty-four year old who starts like thirty projects and will finish maybe one every few months.  The other sister not so much though.  Of course this was to be expected.  It is the disagreeing with everything coming out of my mouth, and the comparing of our bodies.  I am afraid the youngest will turn into the superficial brat this one is.  I wish her all the best in London.  I hope she does find her Mr. Darcy she thinks she is going to find.   OYE!!!  I think for all of life telling us we are going to find a prince charming we are going to think it is finally true.  

So it was a vacation, nothing much was done.  It was a family visit more like it.  go figure.  Nothing to it.  Nothing exciting.  They are family.  They drive a person up a wall like a cat and then the cat hisses back at them.  

Also if the few who read this blog at all can or get a chance, go and read:  www.postsecret.com... you will feel the most liberated ever!  It is a great feeling and a fantastic project.  Maybe soon I will be putting up pictures!

Oh yeah I will be 24 in 2 days...oh well...sad

Good Riddance to bad fog

This fog is killing me.  It is not fog it is smoke.  I am so sad there are like 80 million (exaggeration of course) in you Northern California, but if you could please stop blowing all of your smoke in Northern Nevada's Direction, that would be great thanks... We are all dieing from the air quality here.  One seriously cannot walk outside without feeling like they just walked into an eighty year old smoker's house.  You know they have been doing it since they were sixteen, and you know even if the smoker is not smoking right then and there; It is enough second hand smoke in the house to make you become addicted to cigarettes and smoke till your eighty. :hack hack: 

I just want some fresh air! Please oh Please...Thank you.  

So then I am at work yesterday, and really we are all trying to show off how great we are.  People need to realize we each have our place in the boss's heart, and just back off.  When one is training someone, we just have to let them fail.  The one who steps in thinking they are going to be the better trainer is going to mess up the plan and ruin all of the training previous.  Falling down and learning how to pick oneself up again is probably the best way to learn.  Being the person who steps over the teacher at the time is probably the best way to anger the other and then confuse the student...Oh well, nobody likes you anyways!   ;)

I get to go to Park City for a few days...Whoopie...can you tell I am thrilled.  

I need a vacation, and not one that involves being around my family.  I need to just get away somewhere and just go somewhere exotic, but alas I work and that will never happen...again oh well...

Perhaps I should be a teacher!  Even though I do not want to be...

Really People

I wish I could understand why people feel the need to be so mean to baristas.  We are just there to help you and make you coffee.  I am sorry the coffee did not taste as good as the last time.  We can make it over for you.  Just tell us in a polite manner, and gladly we will.  Really the nicer you are to us the nicer we are to you.  

A lady was getting mad at me today because she did the card register thing and thought when she refilled her card she would be getting a free drink.  No this free drink is only when one registers their card.  Not refill it with money.  It is not my job to give you a free drink, but I still did and politely told her for future the free drink is not part of the refilling of the card.  "I get a free drink I get a free drink I get a free drink" is all she kept saying all through the time I am trying to tell her about the great details of the card registration thing. OYE!

Then another man comes in and tells us how Reno is an armpit.  "Where are you from?"  We ask.  Salt Lake City he tells us.  PFSHT, I have been there I would say they are about the same, except the weather in Reno is a little better.  Both places have pretty mountains.  Both places have some museums, and both places have many things to offer.  Not one is better than the other.  Both have their Arm Pit qualities, just like any city.  He said Salt Lake is better than Reno which really got me.  Oh well.  Really though we live here so probably not smart bud!

On another note, I am almost done with the shall of doom.  This thing will haunt me for ever, but Damn I will finish it.  I want to rip out the jitterbug socks.  I am just not as happy as I thought I was.  I can make a better pattern I know I can, I am better this way and also these socks will so much better anyways!  OHHHHH and I joined ravelry today!!!!! woot!!!

On a sad note, no more George Carlin.  Damn, one funny man.  This pissy ass world needs the funny men in them, and when we lose them it just seems sadder than when we lose a news anchor.  Thanks for all the laughs George, you shall be missed.  

I guess I am writing a song today because there are just notes I am playing them.  The bean crew is going to be painting pottery today.  I am the worst painter in the world so if anything this should be entertaining:).  I cannot wait to get us all together and see how we all say and react! It is a different bunch of people but we are all super fun to see and be! 

Where do I start

Here!

Ok so it has been a while because I am horrible about these things.  I think my life can be really rather boring so who wants to read about it...I know I wouldn't! Well sometimes I wouldn't

So knitting wise, I have been knitting like crazy.  Recently I helped make a scarf for a free scarfs to throws patterns.  A really good idea and really they are all looking super cool together (they can been seen on www.jimmybeanswool.com under the free patterns section mine will be month 8 i think).  So much fun to do too; making the pattern and doing them all soo ladies (not that there are any out there reading this, I know that I am not even writing it) if you get a chance, do it, do my pattern and oh yeah buy some yarn!  The other things are some socks I am creating out of some jitterbug yarn.  I love knitting with this yarn it is really soft and smooth and the colors/color patterns created out of it; my my my are to die for.  I have the camo type one going on.  A guy friend of my liked it so much he wanted it, until he saw the pink in it...Boys and pink heaven for bid someone think your gay for wearing pink.  

Also there is some alpaca sox that I just made my mother socks out of.  They have a Faux cable on them and they show up quite nicely with the varigiation.  Plus it is alpaca so who the hell cares if the pattern shows up; they are like the nicest caring loving male cuddling up with you at night and then making you breakfast in the morning.  I have been on a super huge sock kick lately I don't know why.  They are fun and they are challenging I am thinking that could be it... Also I have been making my sister a shall out of you guessed it more alpaca with silk.  This shall is looking very very nice, she will probably hate it, well just because I made it.

My sister Chrissy graduated from college.  Chrissy went to the University of San Diego.  We are all super proud of her.  She got her degree in business and will be on an internship in London for a year.  It was fun being down in San Diego! I love it there, so pretty!  It rained the whole time which was so nice.  I like the rain.  Plus there was so much fun stuff down in San Diego.  The beach and the food...I got to eat at Ruby's which is my absolute favorite restaurant.  

Reno has been Reno.  It is super nice weather.  Working inside all day gets really hard, but I am managing.  I am starting to get used to my first job, which is getting easier.  I think I will eventually like it.  I love working at the yarn store.  Yarn is great especially when what you love is yarn.  Some day there will a beautiful life where we all can see how amazing it is to work with yarn!!!

Of course who could forget about the dog.  Oliver is being oliver.  Just lays about and then cuddles up next to you gets pissed you didn't pet him after you pet him for fifteen minutes.  (He wants you to pet him for about fifteen hours more, and then he will be half way

 satisfied.) Damn dog, but I love him more than anything.  

Someday...

Right now I would expect myself to feel lonely and to a point I guess that is true, but there is something pulling me through.  It is the promise of him.  I know someday its going to happen and its going to to be perfect.  Everything I have gone through will fade away and I will completely captured by his presence.  Nothing will matter anymore except how much he loves me.  I know he's waiting foe me too and that makes it so much sweeter.  Praying for me as I ado for him.  I won't have to wait for it to happen.  Its to happen.  Its going to be everything I've been waiting for and it will be forever.  So no more petty flings, no more guys who do not appreciate me.  No more boyfriends promising me the world and then ripping it out from under me.  I'm waiting for him.  The right one.  Its so going to be worth it

Someday my prince will come....

Stupid Disney

Knitting

I just think somethings are going to be hard and somethings are going to easy.  Life will always be like this.  

Starbucks will never be easy.  Ever in a million years.  I am always the one who has to change I am always the one who has to deal with it.  I am the one who has to be the one who is bad.  Lucky me.  It is stupid to me but who the hell cares.  I am over it.  Fuck it all!  Oh well as they can with me.  

Today I got to work at the knitting store and it was fun as fun can be as usual! I love it there.  Amber and Amanda are hilarious.  There is tons of fun things when it comes to yarn.  I bought Gracie an amazing yarn today and she hopefully will love it.  It is really pretty and really soft.  Lorna's Laces, super pretty colors!

Tomorrow I get to hop on a plane at 7 am ish and fly to San Diego for the sis's graduation.  I am super proud of my sister.  Chrissy has always been the most amazing in the family and she truly is going somewhere.  I really hope and wish her all the best.  She gets to go to London for a whole year and work for a marketing firm.  This will be the best thing she could do.  Get the fuck out this country...I hate it here.  I wish I could I wish I was as smart as her and able to do what she is.   I think it shall be a lot of fun and am glad to get the hell out of Reno for a few days.  I wish it could be longer.

I think that I am the figure out type.  I just need to find the drive.  I just need to write my book and get it all right and just to quote Christian and that one comedian "GIT 'EER DONNE"  (Christian says it funnier I think)

I

Seriously have not felt this giddy in a long time.  I really feel like a school girl.  No man has ever come up to me and said he needs to get his Katie fix, and I got one today.  I really could not stop smiling, I was shaking.  I had to sit on the floor.  This guy makes me so stupid, is pathetic.  He is gorgeous and dashing and handsome and dreamy.  He comes into Starbucks store to see me, to talk to me, to look at me.  I really truly cannot believe it.  I am in complete shock over this whole thing.  

He came in on Monday and was pissed he just missed me.  

I am being a dumb girl about this but who the hell cares...it is a silly fantasy smile thing that I shall have and nothing will ever come of it but I can think about and dream of a truly DREAMY  man...An actual man, oh my gosh a man...

His lips and his eyes and his body...oh his body.   His teeth are perfect...

But like everything I am sure there is something making him a complete asshole dick faced jerk where he should lick the slop off the side walk instead of talk to me...hence as to why I will dream about him and nothing more...

Ahh this is fun :)

OYE!

Today as I am working at the coffee shop, I am listening to a guy talking about how he likes to kick his females into place when they act up....

Really did you just say that?  

Then my manager comes to me and says the guy just said he has six wives...six wives!?!  Gross

To each their own but really why would you talk about it in public?  It is something illegal and against the law/religious views of most religions...

I just felt gross having to be nice to him.  I felt gross have to help him and treat him the same way I would treat the good customers who come in everyday and treat me the same as everyone else because this man kept looking down on me like I was nothing.  Kept calling me sweety and hon.  

ICKY man...Kicking his females into place...I hope he picks up a prostitute and gets VD

Silly Earthquakes

So everyone is ready right?

4.7 last night lasting like 2 min, waking me up from a dead sleep.  It was pretty crazy and even freaked me out...I have been generally cool about the earthquakes but now I am a little worried.  These are getting a little more serious than I was thinking.  I guess in north Reno there have been about 100 in all night and they build up to big ones. YEESH!  

There are some explanations for them...

Either a new fault is being made, the volcano in Susanville is reacting, or really Reno is going to have a huge one due to the new fault...

Whatever it is, lets hope it is not something hurting a lot of people...

Off to my job, DAMN I am tired, today will be a long day!

The first blog...on Blogger

I want to try blogger...this looks neato...Myspace is just not working, but it is something to keep in touch with friends.  

So I should be asleep.  I have to open tomorrow and that means I have to be up at 3:30 and be at work at 5.  But instead I have been inspired by the women I work with who are knitters and bloggers.  It is fun reading theirs and it has caught on years and years ago.  I am not big on the whole writing thing or sharing thing, but why the hell not right?   

I knit, I do write (I just keep it to myself), and I take care of my dog.  Oh yeah I work at Starbucks and a super cute knitting store.  It is inspiring working at the knitting store.  Knitting is something I love doing and always have.  I love coffee too, which is also an interesting job.  Coffee is easy, but not as much fun as knitting.  This way I get to work at 2 different things one thing I love, the other I just do.

There really isn't more that I can think to write, but hey who knows...if someone finds this interesting(other than me:) I will write more...

Katie